can you imagine if she really looked back at him, so excited and overjoyed and full of love, and he was just standing there, his eyes red and his brow furrowed, and his hand gripped the program so hard that it wrinkled, and she met his eyes, this gorgeous wide smile across her face, and she started to mouth something to him until she stopped seeing him and started seeing him, and his heart in his throat, and her smile slipped, and she knew, and he just nodded once and looked down at his shoes, and when he looked up again, she had hot tears in her eyes and turning away from him with a false smile to her new husband, a man who had the courage to do what he did not, who had the timing he did not, who was not him and never would be.
#throws computer on ground #takes baseball bat #smashes computer #goes to cate’s window #stands outside and throws rocks while sobbing (via whooves)
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